1 00:00:01,235 --> 00:00:05,614 THIS MOVIE MAY BE TOUGH FOR PEOPLE WITH DEPRESSION AND ANXIETY 2 00:01:51,512 --> 00:01:54,139 {\an8}HOW TO CLIMB (VERY HIGH). 3 00:02:56,326 --> 00:02:58,622 After breakfast I will clean up. 4 00:02:59,329 --> 00:03:01,457 Then I'll go back to work. 5 00:03:02,040 --> 00:03:05,085 Then your niece Ellie comes over. 6 00:03:05,169 --> 00:03:07,171 Try saying 'Ellie'. 7 00:03:07,254 --> 00:03:08,839 Ellie. 8 00:03:13,218 --> 00:03:15,804 Where should the next book go? about it, hunk? 9 00:03:16,680 --> 00:03:17,765 Do you like that color? 10 00:03:18,849 --> 00:03:21,810 Pinky Tinkerbink finds her courage. 11 00:03:23,645 --> 00:03:24,521 Does that seem like something to you? 12 00:03:32,821 --> 00:03:35,574 Mom can't draw circles properly. She can't. 13 00:03:37,826 --> 00:03:39,661 You will love peaches. 14 00:03:40,913 --> 00:03:43,665 Your father loves it, but is allergic to the peel. 15 00:03:44,583 --> 00:03:48,504 Hopefully you are not allergic. Otherwise I peel them. 16 00:03:48,587 --> 00:03:50,464 Okay, that's a piece of cake. 17 00:03:50,964 --> 00:03:52,049 Hey, guys. 18 00:03:53,759 --> 00:03:55,677 Good morning. -Hi, honey. 19 00:03:55,761 --> 00:03:59,431 Do you have something for me? -Yes, I want to show you something. 20 00:03:59,515 --> 00:04:01,350 Great. Hi, buddy. 21 00:04:02,851 --> 00:04:08,023 Okay, they asked me to design a poster for my lecture. 22 00:04:08,524 --> 00:04:11,735 Then I designed the entire window. -Naturally. 23 00:04:11,819 --> 00:04:14,530 Pinky is in the middle of a rainbow and it is very bright. 24 00:04:14,613 --> 00:04:17,616 She throws all kinds of 3D hearts into the air. 25 00:04:17,698 --> 00:04:20,994 And look, every child gets one of these. 26 00:04:21,078 --> 00:04:22,538 A magical pinky ring. 27 00:04:26,458 --> 00:04:29,336 You're not even listening to me. -Well, I always listen. 28 00:04:29,420 --> 00:04:32,631 No, you look at me with that look. 29 00:04:32,714 --> 00:04:35,634 I look into your eyes. She has beautiful eyes. 30 00:04:35,717 --> 00:04:38,345 Your mother has beautiful eyes. Just like you. 31 00:04:38,429 --> 00:04:40,764 I don't know what you're trying to find. 32 00:04:43,267 --> 00:04:44,143 You. 33 00:04:46,228 --> 00:04:47,187 I'm here. 34 00:04:51,692 --> 00:04:52,526 Damn. 35 00:04:54,236 --> 00:04:57,698 I have to go. Bye, buddy. I love you. 36 00:04:58,198 --> 00:04:59,032 Bye, mom. 37 00:05:02,077 --> 00:05:05,956 I'll meet you outside on the corner. 34th and 7th, 7pm. 38 00:05:06,039 --> 00:05:08,709 Don't be late. I want to see the match. 39 00:05:08,792 --> 00:05:09,752 Who is that? 40 00:05:10,878 --> 00:05:13,088 Hola, Teddy. -Buenas días, Hector. 41 00:05:13,172 --> 00:05:14,882 Can I come with you? -Naturally. 42 00:05:14,965 --> 00:05:17,134 Day. -We love you. 43 00:05:18,385 --> 00:05:19,803 Bye, Dad. 44 00:05:23,599 --> 00:05:24,892 With your feet in it? 45 00:05:24,975 --> 00:05:26,435 Are your feet in it? 46 00:05:28,353 --> 00:05:29,772 Does it feel good? 47 00:05:30,272 --> 00:05:31,815 Does that feel good, Teddy? 48 00:05:32,483 --> 00:05:33,942 Good boy. 49 00:05:34,526 --> 00:05:36,403 That feels good, doesn't it? 50 00:05:36,487 --> 00:05:38,530 Yes, that's very hot. 51 00:05:38,614 --> 00:05:40,032 That's very hot. 52 00:05:45,329 --> 00:05:46,163 Baby. 53 00:05:56,423 --> 00:05:58,175 You'll be walking soon. 54 00:05:59,760 --> 00:06:03,972 When you start walking, you're going to trip and scrape your knee. 55 00:06:04,973 --> 00:06:06,934 Your head hits the coffee table. 56 00:06:07,434 --> 00:06:08,644 But you keep going. 57 00:06:09,603 --> 00:06:12,648 Because that's what champions do. Still, twink? 58 00:06:14,149 --> 00:06:15,150 They continue. 59 00:06:18,737 --> 00:06:19,905 Who's a good boy? 60 00:06:22,491 --> 00:06:23,951 Do you see all those flowers? 61 00:06:24,451 --> 00:06:26,036 Beautiful flowers. 62 00:07:51,705 --> 00:07:52,831 Look at that moon. 63 00:07:53,665 --> 00:07:54,500 Isn't he beautiful? 64 00:07:55,501 --> 00:07:57,669 Wouldn't you even like to go there? 65 00:07:58,504 --> 00:07:59,463 Well, I do. 66 00:08:08,180 --> 00:08:11,767 I would like to go to the moon someday 67 00:08:11,850 --> 00:08:15,729 even though it is a long way away 68 00:08:16,271 --> 00:08:19,566 I would like to go to the moon one day 69 00:08:20,401 --> 00:08:23,987 but only if it doesn't take too long 70 00:08:24,571 --> 00:08:28,283 although it is of course a wonderful adventure 71 00:08:28,367 --> 00:08:31,161 Voicemail. Julie, pick up. We know you're there. 72 00:08:32,663 --> 00:08:34,456 We parked. Do you need anything? 73 00:08:38,001 --> 00:08:39,086 Starbucks? 74 00:08:40,129 --> 00:08:42,923 Ellie, you're going to pull out all my hair. 75 00:08:43,424 --> 00:08:45,592 We'll be there in ten minutes. Day. 76 00:08:45,676 --> 00:08:48,220 to see the fish up close 77 00:08:48,971 --> 00:08:52,391 I like to dive deep into the sea for once 78 00:08:52,975 --> 00:08:56,103 but too long wouldn't do anything for me 79 00:08:58,147 --> 00:08:59,565 Ellie will be right there. 80 00:09:01,358 --> 00:09:05,404 you only hear blub and that's it 81 00:09:05,487 --> 00:09:09,450 as long as it is for a day or two 82 00:09:09,533 --> 00:09:12,911 I like to dive into the sea for once 83 00:09:13,454 --> 00:09:17,791 I would like to go to a jungle going full of lions 84 00:09:18,292 --> 00:09:22,129 or very close to the edge standing off a precipice 85 00:09:22,212 --> 00:09:25,841 I would like to go to a place a long way away 86 00:09:26,341 --> 00:09:29,845 but not if it takes way too long 87 00:09:29,928 --> 00:09:33,557 I don't know if I would really go 88 00:09:34,308 --> 00:09:38,020 to a nearby moon or star 89 00:09:38,562 --> 00:09:41,440 I don't think the mail ever arrives 90 00:09:42,649 --> 00:09:46,278 if anyone already sends you something 91 00:09:46,862 --> 00:09:50,866 although it remains a fun adventure 92 00:09:50,949 --> 00:09:54,912 I think you miss everyone in the long run 93 00:09:54,995 --> 00:10:00,334 an hour or so I think I would go 94 00:10:01,418 --> 00:10:05,756 I don't like to stay on the moon for a long time 95 00:10:05,839 --> 00:10:09,426 no, I don't like to stay long 96 00:10:10,177 --> 00:10:11,845 on the moon 97 00:11:11,071 --> 00:11:13,282 What are you looking at? Do you see your balloon? 98 00:11:14,116 --> 00:11:16,243 Do you see the balloon? That one's for you. 99 00:11:33,719 --> 00:11:36,555 Almost home, hunk. We're almost there. 100 00:11:48,984 --> 00:11:50,986 Hi guys. 101 00:11:51,070 --> 00:11:53,489 How is my favorite grandson? 102 00:11:57,076 --> 00:11:57,951 There you are. 103 00:11:59,036 --> 00:12:02,289 Are you ready for a bottle? 104 00:12:02,372 --> 00:12:05,667 Come here, honey. Come on. I got you. 105 00:12:06,210 --> 00:12:08,295 Who's a pretty boy? 106 00:12:08,378 --> 00:12:11,381 Hi. Hello there. Hi. 107 00:12:13,133 --> 00:12:14,301 I'll take it. 108 00:12:16,095 --> 00:12:18,055 Hello? -Hi. 109 00:12:18,138 --> 00:12:19,598 How are you? -Great. 110 00:12:19,681 --> 00:12:21,350 We were in the shoe store. 111 00:12:21,433 --> 00:12:26,438 And our little guy with the chubby one small feet has size 19. 112 00:12:26,522 --> 00:12:27,940 To walk on. Wide. 113 00:12:28,649 --> 00:12:29,650 Listen. 114 00:12:31,110 --> 00:12:32,736 I won't be late tonight. 115 00:12:32,820 --> 00:12:35,864 I see them after work and come home in peace. Good? 116 00:12:35,948 --> 00:12:39,201 I actually wanted tonight go with you. 117 00:12:40,202 --> 00:12:43,831 My mother did the laundry and fluffed the pillows. 118 00:12:43,914 --> 00:12:45,999 She is now bottle feeding Teddy. 119 00:12:46,083 --> 00:12:50,212 Because she's already keeping watch, we should take advantage of that. 120 00:12:50,295 --> 00:12:52,756 Jule, it's only temporary. 121 00:12:52,840 --> 00:12:55,384 Until you're strong enough to take care of Teddy alone. 122 00:12:55,467 --> 00:12:57,553 Oh shit. So forever? 123 00:12:58,345 --> 00:13:00,180 Do you really want to see Lucy? 124 00:13:00,722 --> 00:13:02,850 Yes, I want that. 125 00:13:02,933 --> 00:13:04,476 I have to go. 126 00:13:06,228 --> 00:13:09,690 Then I'll see you outside. -Okay, see you later. 127 00:13:11,066 --> 00:13:11,984 I love you. 128 00:13:12,067 --> 00:13:14,027 I love you. Day. 129 00:13:43,974 --> 00:13:45,392 I'm getting my face done. 130 00:13:46,268 --> 00:13:48,645 Not true. That's ridiculous, Mom. 131 00:13:48,729 --> 00:13:51,482 There was an opening on Teddy's birthday. 132 00:13:51,565 --> 00:13:53,275 The happiest day of the year. 133 00:13:54,902 --> 00:13:58,030 But maybe you do need me for his party. 134 00:13:58,113 --> 00:13:59,573 Party? Which party? 135 00:13:59,656 --> 00:14:02,326 He has no friends. Who do we invite? 136 00:14:02,409 --> 00:14:05,079 But you do. Come on, that's a good reset. 137 00:14:05,162 --> 00:14:08,040 Invite people, let me know that things are going well. 138 00:14:10,793 --> 00:14:13,796 Then your father can also easier to come back. 139 00:14:18,801 --> 00:14:20,719 You know he loves you very much. 140 00:14:23,806 --> 00:14:26,683 Mom, I love you, but don't stand near the shower like that. 141 00:15:04,555 --> 00:15:08,100 Hello, Ms. Davis. I'm Dr. Sylvester. 142 00:15:08,183 --> 00:15:11,728 I'm a psychiatrist in the hospital. -Is my son okay? 143 00:15:11,812 --> 00:15:14,189 Yes, he's doing well. 144 00:15:14,898 --> 00:15:18,444 Cute little guy. He is waiting for you at home with your husband. 145 00:15:18,527 --> 00:15:22,156 My sister-in-law is killing me. -No. 146 00:15:22,656 --> 00:15:24,158 They want to see you. 147 00:15:24,241 --> 00:15:27,369 It seemed like a good idea to me to have a chat first. 148 00:15:28,287 --> 00:15:30,038 Is that okay? -Yes. 149 00:15:30,998 --> 00:15:32,332 What happened? 150 00:15:36,795 --> 00:15:39,465 Is this the first time? that you wanted to commit suicide? 151 00:15:40,257 --> 00:15:41,175 Yes. 152 00:15:42,176 --> 00:15:45,512 Have you ever been close to it? Have you thought about it? 153 00:15:48,599 --> 00:15:50,392 I think about it constantly. 154 00:15:52,186 --> 00:15:53,729 How far back does that go? 155 00:15:57,441 --> 00:16:00,194 On and off, since third grade. 156 00:16:02,613 --> 00:16:04,531 Then things started to change. 157 00:16:05,824 --> 00:16:06,742 In what way? 158 00:16:08,160 --> 00:16:09,453 Everything was blurry. 159 00:16:10,704 --> 00:16:14,666 My memory is fuzzy. I can't explain it any other way. 160 00:16:15,751 --> 00:16:18,212 Does mental illness run in your family? -No. 161 00:16:19,713 --> 00:16:20,798 That's not true. 162 00:16:22,174 --> 00:16:24,760 My mother would say that my father is mentally ill. 163 00:16:26,512 --> 00:16:27,888 My husband would say... 164 00:16:29,181 --> 00:16:33,435 that my father's mental illness seems serious on being an asshole. 165 00:16:36,897 --> 00:16:38,398 And more recently? 166 00:16:39,775 --> 00:16:41,443 How did it go when you were pregnant? 167 00:16:42,444 --> 00:16:43,570 That went well. 168 00:16:45,322 --> 00:16:46,740 And after the birth? 169 00:16:47,574 --> 00:16:52,996 It was basically the same like what I've been experiencing all my life. 170 00:16:54,498 --> 00:16:58,419 I felt spoiled and too weak. 171 00:16:59,128 --> 00:17:05,175 Like any other woman could take better care of Teddy. 172 00:17:08,094 --> 00:17:09,095 For both of them. 173 00:17:21,441 --> 00:17:22,442 Yes. 174 00:17:24,027 --> 00:17:26,655 I don't know if you remember this, but in the 70's... 175 00:17:26,739 --> 00:17:29,700 the rumor went that there were spider eggs in it. 176 00:17:29,783 --> 00:17:31,660 People stopped chewing it. 177 00:17:33,120 --> 00:17:35,247 I thought that too for a while. 178 00:17:36,165 --> 00:17:39,042 Even after their ad in the New York Times. 179 00:17:39,126 --> 00:17:41,545 I knew it wasn't true, but couldn't chew it. 180 00:17:44,339 --> 00:17:47,217 Funny how that happens. You start believing rumors. 181 00:17:48,051 --> 00:17:52,890 You discover it's not true, but still you can't get that chewing gum in your mouth. 182 00:17:54,224 --> 00:17:55,559 And recently... 183 00:17:55,642 --> 00:17:59,146 I said to my daughter that she could choose sweets. 184 00:17:59,229 --> 00:18:02,107 And of course she chose this one. 185 00:18:02,191 --> 00:18:04,359 Pink, is at eye level. Logically. 186 00:18:06,403 --> 00:18:09,114 But then this becomes my thought process: 187 00:18:09,198 --> 00:18:13,118 wait a minute, she's too young for chewing gum. She'll soon suffocate. 188 00:18:13,827 --> 00:18:18,040 Then I thought: you are a doctor. You know that she doesn't suffocate. That's crazy. 189 00:18:18,957 --> 00:18:20,000 Then I knew. 190 00:18:23,003 --> 00:18:26,173 It was my irrational fear for spider eggs. 191 00:18:28,759 --> 00:18:30,302 After all these years. 192 00:18:34,014 --> 00:18:38,519 We all have to learn where the spider eggs actually are. 193 00:18:40,854 --> 00:18:44,399 And perhaps even more importantly, where they are not. 194 00:18:58,372 --> 00:19:00,040 Who's hungry? 195 00:19:00,124 --> 00:19:01,959 What good food can you eat? 196 00:19:02,584 --> 00:19:03,419 Please. 197 00:19:03,502 --> 00:19:05,921 Mom, can you connect me? Please. 198 00:19:07,089 --> 00:19:08,006 Naturally. 199 00:19:08,674 --> 00:19:09,842 This one doesn't work. 200 00:19:10,926 --> 00:19:12,511 I have to cut your hair. 201 00:19:13,011 --> 00:19:16,849 We can go to the hairdresser. -Don't you trust me with scissors? 202 00:19:16,932 --> 00:19:19,143 No, I'm afraid it will get ugly. 203 00:19:20,144 --> 00:19:21,520 No. -Like this. 204 00:19:21,603 --> 00:19:24,106 Fine. Everything is covered. 205 00:19:25,441 --> 00:19:27,693 I just needed some beads. 206 00:19:28,277 --> 00:19:29,486 Hey, baby. 207 00:19:30,571 --> 00:19:31,905 Look. -Dear boy. 208 00:19:31,989 --> 00:19:32,823 Look. 209 00:19:33,365 --> 00:19:34,491 Oh my god. 210 00:19:36,076 --> 00:19:37,786 This is what my face will look like. 211 00:19:37,870 --> 00:19:40,289 They shave off the cartilage. 212 00:19:40,372 --> 00:19:43,375 Your nose becomes rounder as you get older. 213 00:19:43,459 --> 00:19:45,085 And teeth shift. 214 00:19:45,169 --> 00:19:49,715 Someday, when I'm no longer here, you have to pay attention to your nose and your teeth. 215 00:19:49,798 --> 00:19:51,717 They betray you. Got it? 216 00:19:54,386 --> 00:19:55,554 Do you want to feed him? 217 00:19:58,182 --> 00:20:00,768 It's okay, another time. 218 00:20:00,851 --> 00:20:03,103 You don't want to be late. -Yes. 219 00:20:03,187 --> 00:20:05,731 Have fun with your husband. 220 00:20:05,814 --> 00:20:08,942 Don't panic. I'm here. 221 00:20:09,026 --> 00:20:11,070 Yes, have another bite. 222 00:20:15,574 --> 00:20:17,618 Yes. -Sorry. You're so beautiful, mom. 223 00:20:18,160 --> 00:20:19,703 No facelifts, okay? 224 00:20:19,787 --> 00:20:22,081 Then you're like an alien. I love you so much. 225 00:20:22,164 --> 00:20:25,000 Then I look ten years younger. -I love you. 226 00:20:25,709 --> 00:20:26,960 Have fun. 227 00:20:27,836 --> 00:20:29,463 Okay, I'm going already. 228 00:20:29,546 --> 00:20:30,380 Hey, Jule? 229 00:20:31,965 --> 00:20:32,841 Yes? 230 00:20:32,925 --> 00:20:34,426 Is he okay? 231 00:20:34,510 --> 00:20:38,097 You don't think that something happened to him? 232 00:20:38,180 --> 00:20:40,015 Dad? No, I'm not worried about him. 233 00:20:40,099 --> 00:20:44,394 Because I have always been able to reach him. I can't reach him right now. 234 00:20:48,148 --> 00:20:49,900 Maybe he doesn't want to be found. 235 00:20:52,903 --> 00:20:55,739 Would you like another snack? -I love you. 236 00:20:56,365 --> 00:21:00,244 when you kiss a girl with a ukulele 237 00:21:00,327 --> 00:21:03,455 and you promise to be faithful to her 238 00:21:03,539 --> 00:21:04,832 I lock the door. 239 00:21:04,915 --> 00:21:10,129 if she's with another girl with a ukulele sees vozen 240 00:21:11,588 --> 00:21:15,551 maybe she will cry 241 00:21:15,634 --> 00:21:18,846 maybe she will sigh 242 00:21:19,346 --> 00:21:21,640 maybe she will find... 243 00:21:53,130 --> 00:21:56,467 Jesus. Hang in there. Hang in there. 244 00:22:18,322 --> 00:22:19,156 You're here. 245 00:22:22,743 --> 00:22:23,577 Are you okay? 246 00:22:23,660 --> 00:22:25,287 Yes, this will work. 247 00:22:26,663 --> 00:22:27,915 Will this work? -Yes. 248 00:22:35,255 --> 00:22:37,549 Hi. -Hi, look at you. 249 00:22:37,633 --> 00:22:38,926 Good to see you. -Yes. 250 00:22:39,009 --> 00:22:40,511 Hi, good to see you. 251 00:22:41,345 --> 00:22:43,764 What do you think? Will our man win? 252 00:22:43,847 --> 00:22:46,975 Guaranteed. -Look at your husband. 253 00:22:47,059 --> 00:22:50,187 The eternal optimist. -You don't have to tell me that. 254 00:22:50,687 --> 00:22:52,731 Come on, let's sit down. Lucy is here. 255 00:23:00,322 --> 00:23:01,281 Hi, sister. -Hi. 256 00:23:03,951 --> 00:23:05,494 Okay, do you want something to drink? 257 00:23:05,577 --> 00:23:06,829 Yes. -Beer, huh? 258 00:23:06,912 --> 00:23:10,666 What may it be? -Hi, can I have four Corona with lime? 259 00:23:10,749 --> 00:23:13,335 Would you like... With extra lime. Thank you. 260 00:23:15,671 --> 00:23:17,589 Sounds good. -Yes. 261 00:23:18,799 --> 00:23:20,426 I've already ordered food. 262 00:23:20,509 --> 00:23:24,847 Those tiny hot dogs and nachos. 263 00:23:26,515 --> 00:23:29,101 Good. Tasty. -Thank you. 264 00:23:31,770 --> 00:23:32,604 Thank you. 265 00:23:34,773 --> 00:23:38,277 Do you know Shel Silverstein? He wrote The Giving Tree. 266 00:23:38,360 --> 00:23:40,863 Naturally. -He's one of my heroes. 267 00:23:40,946 --> 00:23:44,950 Just like Schulz, Seuss, Sendak, Hans Christian Anderson. 268 00:23:45,033 --> 00:23:48,787 That's not what it's about. Anyway, before he became famous... 269 00:23:48,871 --> 00:23:51,457 he sold hot dogs for the White Sox and Chicago Cubs. 270 00:23:51,540 --> 00:23:54,293 That's like rooting for the Mets and the Yankees works. 271 00:23:55,043 --> 00:23:56,879 Yes, when he was famous... 272 00:23:56,962 --> 00:24:01,049 an interviewer asked him what he had learned. 273 00:24:01,133 --> 00:24:04,636 He said everyone likes ketchup. 274 00:24:04,720 --> 00:24:08,140 Everyone loves mustard. Everyone loves that. 275 00:24:09,933 --> 00:24:12,561 Yes, that was it. He had learned that. 276 00:24:13,562 --> 00:24:14,396 Mustard. 277 00:24:15,189 --> 00:24:17,107 Are you done with that story? 278 00:24:17,191 --> 00:24:19,193 Can I just say something else? 279 00:24:20,944 --> 00:24:22,404 I wonder... -Stop it. 280 00:24:23,363 --> 00:24:25,657 Go ahead. Let her have her say. 281 00:24:27,034 --> 00:24:29,369 Have you ever thought about it? what it would be like for us? 282 00:24:29,453 --> 00:24:31,914 Ellie thought she had a play date. 283 00:24:31,997 --> 00:24:33,832 Okay, stop it. -Okay. 284 00:24:35,209 --> 00:24:37,586 How was the house? 285 00:24:37,669 --> 00:24:39,463 Did you like the house? Nice, huh? 286 00:24:40,631 --> 00:24:41,757 No. -What? 287 00:24:42,341 --> 00:24:43,717 What? 288 00:24:44,593 --> 00:24:48,055 I looked at a house in their street that is for sale. 289 00:24:48,138 --> 00:24:51,350 Very beautiful. A large garden. Very affordable. 290 00:24:51,433 --> 00:24:55,729 There is a basket. Then you can Teddy watching them play from the kitchen. 291 00:24:55,813 --> 00:24:57,231 Houses scare me. 292 00:24:57,314 --> 00:25:00,526 And I love our apartment. I am happy there. 293 00:25:00,609 --> 00:25:03,779 I am very happy there. -Now I don't know anymore. 294 00:25:03,862 --> 00:25:06,323 Sorry, are you saying you're happy there? 295 00:25:06,407 --> 00:25:09,284 Okay, guys. -I'm really so confused. 296 00:25:09,368 --> 00:25:13,580 Sorry, but it always runs just because of you, Julie. 297 00:25:13,664 --> 00:25:15,082 It's never about him. 298 00:25:15,165 --> 00:25:17,668 Have you ever asked what was it like for him? 299 00:25:18,168 --> 00:25:21,380 Ask him what he did every night when you were in the hospital. 300 00:25:21,463 --> 00:25:22,756 Tell what you did. 301 00:25:23,465 --> 00:25:25,467 A move would be good for us. 302 00:25:25,551 --> 00:25:28,846 He came home after work and after he visited you... 303 00:25:28,929 --> 00:25:31,974 and after he tucked in your son, and do you know what he did? 304 00:25:32,057 --> 00:25:33,392 He cleaned the carpet. 305 00:25:35,144 --> 00:25:38,188 That's what you do with blood. That doesn't come from the carpet. 306 00:25:38,272 --> 00:25:39,731 Where are you going? -I have to pee. 307 00:25:46,530 --> 00:25:49,283 Are you happy now? -Real? 308 00:25:51,243 --> 00:25:52,161 Leave it to me. 309 00:27:55,701 --> 00:27:56,535 Jule? 310 00:28:35,908 --> 00:28:36,742 FLOWERS FOR SALE 311 00:28:44,458 --> 00:28:46,251 Yes, are you ready? 312 00:28:49,379 --> 00:28:50,964 That's great. -Ready? 313 00:28:51,882 --> 00:28:54,551 One, two... 314 00:29:24,081 --> 00:29:27,459 Hi, this is Ron. Leave a message and I'll call you back... 315 00:30:12,880 --> 00:30:14,631 Why are you afraid of houses? 316 00:30:16,425 --> 00:30:18,886 They're great. Everyone loves houses. 317 00:30:24,016 --> 00:30:26,977 Suppose you are on one side of the house you and I are on the other side. 318 00:30:27,060 --> 00:30:29,730 I'm calling your name and you don't hear me. What then? 319 00:30:31,607 --> 00:30:33,442 Then we buy walkie-talkies. 320 00:30:33,525 --> 00:30:37,946 Suppose there is a thunderstorm and you are in town and Teddy and I are alone there? 321 00:30:38,906 --> 00:30:42,242 Then I drive home. -And if you have an accident? 322 00:30:44,161 --> 00:30:49,041 Then I stumble to a train and walk the rest of the way. 323 00:30:50,918 --> 00:30:53,378 What if we move and you don't love me anymore? 324 00:30:56,340 --> 00:30:57,174 Well... 325 00:30:58,717 --> 00:31:01,095 There you can find the house not to blame. 326 00:31:06,266 --> 00:31:07,101 Jule? 327 00:31:08,519 --> 00:31:10,479 I will always love you. 328 00:31:15,317 --> 00:31:18,612 What if I promise that I'm on the roof of our house... 329 00:31:19,238 --> 00:31:21,031 secretly wants to smoke cigarettes with you? 330 00:31:33,961 --> 00:31:36,588 You could see the stars again. 331 00:31:58,819 --> 00:32:00,028 They are already healing. 332 00:32:53,582 --> 00:32:55,375 You should look. 333 00:32:57,169 --> 00:33:01,340 I have a one year old job who would like to see his mother. 334 00:33:01,423 --> 00:33:03,592 Congratulations, darling. 335 00:33:04,218 --> 00:33:05,677 Hi, twink. 336 00:33:05,761 --> 00:33:08,722 Congratulations. Do you like your plate? 337 00:33:08,806 --> 00:33:14,228 It says: 'Congratulations, Teddy Bear.' Mom made that sign. 338 00:33:14,311 --> 00:33:16,188 She just finished it. 339 00:33:16,271 --> 00:33:18,982 Would you like to see your present? Do you want to see that? 340 00:33:20,442 --> 00:33:23,445 Good. What do we have here? -What is this? 341 00:33:24,863 --> 00:33:26,281 Homemade surprise? 342 00:33:32,121 --> 00:33:33,747 Too many? -No. 343 00:33:34,873 --> 00:33:36,708 He likes it. -Of course. 344 00:33:38,836 --> 00:33:39,711 Yes? 345 00:33:41,463 --> 00:33:42,423 Very cute. 346 00:33:45,134 --> 00:33:47,136 It's not my birthday. -Open it. 347 00:33:57,813 --> 00:33:59,815 The next Pinky book is about hope. 348 00:34:08,490 --> 00:34:09,450 Thank you. 349 00:34:12,953 --> 00:34:14,163 We made it to a year. 350 00:34:19,751 --> 00:34:20,836 What do you say to that? 351 00:34:22,546 --> 00:34:24,923 We made it to a year. 352 00:35:07,549 --> 00:35:09,134 Sorry I'm so hairy. 353 00:35:10,969 --> 00:35:12,763 I see 50 a day. 354 00:35:13,722 --> 00:35:17,101 He should bite like a turtle before I notice it. 355 00:35:20,938 --> 00:35:23,273 Finished. Just sit up straight. 356 00:35:25,692 --> 00:35:29,738 It's Teddy's birthday today. -Are you going to celebrate? 357 00:35:29,822 --> 00:35:32,199 He gets tonight his first chocolate cake. 358 00:35:32,282 --> 00:35:34,618 I'm going to bake that for him. -Great. 359 00:35:35,160 --> 00:35:38,414 I now ask new mothers how they are doing. 360 00:35:38,497 --> 00:35:41,208 Not just physically, but how they are really doing. 361 00:35:42,334 --> 00:35:43,335 That's because of you. 362 00:35:44,461 --> 00:35:45,629 That's very good. 363 00:35:49,967 --> 00:35:51,802 How do the antidepressants work? 364 00:35:52,511 --> 00:35:53,804 Well good. 365 00:35:53,887 --> 00:35:58,183 I walked through a world that was black and white. 366 00:35:58,267 --> 00:36:01,228 Now I'm starting to see colors again. 367 00:36:02,896 --> 00:36:05,023 Good. -Yes. 368 00:36:05,607 --> 00:36:08,485 How is your period? Still awful? 369 00:36:08,569 --> 00:36:10,362 Do you know what the advantage is? 370 00:36:11,113 --> 00:36:14,783 I'm already two months old no longer had my period. 371 00:36:15,492 --> 00:36:17,745 Maybe because of all the blood loss. 372 00:36:19,705 --> 00:36:20,539 Sounds logical. 373 00:36:21,957 --> 00:36:24,084 Okay, good. I'm having Barbara draw blood. 374 00:36:24,168 --> 00:36:27,045 You have to pee in a pot. You know it. 375 00:36:27,129 --> 00:36:28,505 I'll be right back. 376 00:36:53,322 --> 00:36:54,156 When? 377 00:36:57,785 --> 00:36:58,619 October. 378 00:37:03,832 --> 00:37:05,334 October is almost here. 379 00:37:10,714 --> 00:37:12,132 Bread-crumbs. 380 00:37:18,889 --> 00:37:21,016 There are so many types. 381 00:37:25,604 --> 00:37:27,606 Isn't that the same? 382 00:37:30,567 --> 00:37:32,903 I'll take this one. No, this one. 383 00:37:32,986 --> 00:37:34,530 And vanilla extract. 384 00:37:35,030 --> 00:37:37,866 Just soda water and we're done. 385 00:37:43,497 --> 00:37:45,457 I'm going to get water for Dad. 386 00:37:45,999 --> 00:37:49,044 He loves sparkling water. You can help me. 387 00:37:50,379 --> 00:37:52,881 There are so many options here too. 388 00:37:55,217 --> 00:37:57,261 It's not that difficult. 389 00:38:03,100 --> 00:38:04,560 The store is closing soon. 390 00:38:09,440 --> 00:38:12,067 It's not that difficult. 391 00:38:16,113 --> 00:38:17,239 Madam? 392 00:38:18,407 --> 00:38:19,283 Madam? 393 00:38:20,242 --> 00:38:21,076 Madam? 394 00:38:22,870 --> 00:38:24,371 Madam, you have not paid yet. 395 00:38:25,789 --> 00:38:26,832 Ma'am, you have to pay. 396 00:38:28,792 --> 00:38:29,918 Release the lemon. 397 00:38:30,002 --> 00:38:31,462 Come on. Good boy. 398 00:38:32,004 --> 00:38:33,338 We didn't pay that. 399 00:39:35,901 --> 00:39:40,614 We've come to see Dr. Sylvester. Julie Davis. I'm Ethan Davis. 400 00:39:41,657 --> 00:39:44,368 I understand what you're saying, but I can't. 401 00:39:45,244 --> 00:39:47,246 I didn't drink wine or diet coke... 402 00:39:47,329 --> 00:39:50,040 when I was pregnant with Teddy. No coffee or cigarettes. 403 00:39:50,124 --> 00:39:52,334 If you were diabetic, would you then stop taking medication? 404 00:39:52,418 --> 00:39:54,711 That's not the same. 405 00:39:57,089 --> 00:40:00,426 This feels like a conversation but it isn't. 406 00:40:00,509 --> 00:40:03,137 Okay? You have to take the antidepressants. 407 00:40:04,471 --> 00:40:08,267 If you don't take anything, it protects you pregnancy hormones you might. 408 00:40:08,350 --> 00:40:10,936 Then the pills work maybe not anymore. 409 00:40:11,019 --> 00:40:15,482 Or they take too long to work. You don't want to take that risk, do you? 410 00:40:17,359 --> 00:40:21,196 You are a strong woman. I know you want that to be enough. 411 00:40:21,280 --> 00:40:26,243 You can be as strong as Hercules himself... 412 00:40:26,326 --> 00:40:29,997 but if you can't swim, then you drown. 413 00:40:31,373 --> 00:40:32,750 I can swim. 414 00:40:34,251 --> 00:40:37,755 When I studied, I saw myself as a poet. 415 00:40:37,838 --> 00:40:40,257 In my third year I went with a poet. 416 00:40:40,340 --> 00:40:43,802 We read poems every evening. Before going to sleep. 417 00:40:43,886 --> 00:40:46,638 One evening my girlfriend read to me... 418 00:40:47,431 --> 00:40:48,557 this poem for. 419 00:40:49,808 --> 00:40:52,644 That made a big impression on me. 420 00:40:53,437 --> 00:40:57,691 your brother releases his balloon squealing like a cat 421 00:40:57,775 --> 00:41:01,820 he seems a funny, pink world to see that he wants to eat 422 00:41:01,904 --> 00:41:04,615 he bites and then leans back 423 00:41:04,698 --> 00:41:05,949 thick jug 424 00:41:06,033 --> 00:41:08,619 thinking of a world which is as clear as water 425 00:41:08,702 --> 00:41:12,498 a red piece in his small fist 426 00:41:14,041 --> 00:41:16,460 Although I remained so for the rest try for the rest of my life... 427 00:41:16,543 --> 00:41:18,879 I would never write such a good text. 428 00:41:19,755 --> 00:41:22,382 That's one of the last poems by Sylvia Plath. 429 00:41:22,466 --> 00:41:23,675 Before she committed suicide. 430 00:41:24,259 --> 00:41:25,427 I remember thinking: 431 00:41:25,511 --> 00:41:30,891 how can someone have so much sees life and hope in a balloon... 432 00:41:30,974 --> 00:41:34,686 just bake cookies and then stick her head in the oven? 433 00:41:35,270 --> 00:41:36,605 How is that possible? 434 00:41:37,106 --> 00:41:40,484 Because she knew what beauty she left behind. 435 00:41:40,567 --> 00:41:44,905 Yet the pain was so bad that death became her only option. 436 00:41:46,990 --> 00:41:47,950 Let's wait. 437 00:41:49,243 --> 00:41:50,077 To wait? 438 00:41:51,453 --> 00:41:52,371 Let's wait. 439 00:41:52,871 --> 00:41:57,084 Until Teddy is out of diapers. No one will judge you for it. 440 00:41:58,127 --> 00:42:00,671 No one will ever know. -I'll know. 441 00:42:02,297 --> 00:42:04,508 Jule, listen to him. 442 00:42:05,384 --> 00:42:07,052 We were lucky last time. 443 00:42:17,354 --> 00:42:19,189 You're allowed to be angry with me. 444 00:42:19,273 --> 00:42:22,693 I hate it when you give permission to be angry with you. 445 00:42:22,776 --> 00:42:24,695 I get angry when I want to. 446 00:42:24,778 --> 00:42:27,322 You can be angry with me too. -No, I can't. 447 00:42:28,198 --> 00:42:31,869 I can't get mad at you. You left no room for that. 448 00:42:32,745 --> 00:42:33,996 You took care of that. 449 00:42:36,498 --> 00:42:37,750 That's not fair. 450 00:42:37,833 --> 00:42:39,084 Honestly? Real? 451 00:42:39,168 --> 00:42:40,878 Do you want to talk about honesty? 452 00:42:44,089 --> 00:42:45,174 That's what I thought. 453 00:42:54,308 --> 00:42:55,142 Come on. 454 00:42:58,103 --> 00:42:58,937 Come on. 455 00:43:15,621 --> 00:43:16,455 Good. 456 00:43:18,415 --> 00:43:19,249 Good? 457 00:43:23,796 --> 00:43:24,630 Good. 458 00:44:09,216 --> 00:44:10,968 GOOD CONQUERS 459 00:44:16,473 --> 00:44:19,476 Hi, a man from the supermarket came to deliver this. 460 00:44:21,645 --> 00:44:22,479 Thank you. 461 00:44:27,860 --> 00:44:29,611 Nice to have you back. 462 00:44:32,698 --> 00:44:33,699 Hey, Hector? 463 00:44:40,456 --> 00:44:41,373 It's okay. 464 00:45:18,077 --> 00:45:19,203 It'll be fine. 465 00:45:22,164 --> 00:45:25,834 We're having another child. And just like with Teddy... 466 00:45:25,918 --> 00:45:28,629 we will us the world without him no longer remember. 467 00:45:31,048 --> 00:45:31,965 Or her. 468 00:45:35,135 --> 00:45:37,721 That's a good thing. -Yes. 469 00:45:39,098 --> 00:45:40,140 It's okay. 470 00:45:41,391 --> 00:45:42,226 It's okay. 471 00:46:07,000 --> 00:46:08,544 And two more. 472 00:46:21,265 --> 00:46:22,182 Hey, buddy. 473 00:46:23,934 --> 00:46:26,019 Oh, dear. Real? 474 00:46:28,188 --> 00:46:29,565 Okay. How is she? 475 00:46:31,400 --> 00:46:34,778 Great. I'm going there now. I have everything she asked for. 476 00:46:35,612 --> 00:46:36,613 Yes, that too. 477 00:46:37,531 --> 00:46:39,867 Okay. See you soon. Call me when there is news. 478 00:46:39,950 --> 00:46:42,327 Okay. I love you. Day. 479 00:47:21,408 --> 00:47:22,284 Do you like this? 480 00:47:23,911 --> 00:47:24,870 Trees? Yes. 481 00:47:27,915 --> 00:47:29,083 It will be quiet. 482 00:47:32,044 --> 00:47:33,087 You get used to it. 483 00:47:40,594 --> 00:47:42,596 Were the people who lived here happy? 484 00:47:47,392 --> 00:47:48,268 Probably yes. 485 00:47:51,271 --> 00:47:52,773 Would we be happy here? 486 00:47:55,317 --> 00:47:56,610 I think so. 487 00:47:57,611 --> 00:47:59,571 We are very happy here. 488 00:48:06,078 --> 00:48:06,912 I think so too. 489 00:48:08,664 --> 00:48:09,623 I think so too. 490 00:48:13,836 --> 00:48:15,712 The lungs develop well. 491 00:48:15,796 --> 00:48:21,468 Cardiac activity is excellent. Ten fingers, ten toes. And... 492 00:48:23,095 --> 00:48:27,141 Finally... Come on, you little rascal. 493 00:48:27,933 --> 00:48:29,893 It's already there. Yes. 494 00:48:31,186 --> 00:48:32,563 Do you want to know the gender? 495 00:48:32,646 --> 00:48:33,480 Yes. -No. 496 00:48:35,774 --> 00:48:38,944 Should I write it differently? 497 00:48:39,027 --> 00:48:41,572 Then you can watch when you're ready. 498 00:48:42,906 --> 00:48:43,991 Or not. 499 00:48:45,701 --> 00:48:47,327 For the scrapbook. 500 00:48:50,372 --> 00:48:52,541 I'll see you in a month. 501 00:48:53,167 --> 00:48:54,209 You're doing great. 502 00:48:54,960 --> 00:48:56,086 She's doing well. 503 00:48:56,170 --> 00:48:58,172 Thank you, doctor. -Thank you. 504 00:49:04,470 --> 00:49:07,681 Ten fingers, ten toes. -Ten fingers, ten toes. 505 00:49:07,765 --> 00:49:09,641 Hello. -Hi. 506 00:49:09,725 --> 00:49:12,311 Two strawberries? -Yes. 507 00:49:12,394 --> 00:49:14,271 Two strawberry ice creams. 508 00:49:15,481 --> 00:49:16,398 Thank you. 509 00:49:18,192 --> 00:49:19,943 And that's for you. Thank you. 510 00:49:23,113 --> 00:49:24,031 Yes. 511 00:49:40,005 --> 00:49:42,758 Don't let her fall. -Why should I? 512 00:49:58,899 --> 00:50:03,320 That's right. That's it. My big and strong what? 513 00:50:03,821 --> 00:50:05,531 My strong legs. 514 00:50:05,614 --> 00:50:08,367 Look at me tightening up. 515 00:50:08,450 --> 00:50:12,538 What word are we looking for? Thank you. Tighten. 516 00:50:13,288 --> 00:50:15,916 Thank you. Tighten... What? 517 00:50:16,708 --> 00:50:19,461 Finished? Hey, come on. Here. 518 00:50:19,545 --> 00:50:20,921 Hey, look. 519 00:50:22,631 --> 00:50:24,425 What is she doing? 520 00:50:27,886 --> 00:50:29,555 MEET JULIE DAVIS 521 00:50:30,722 --> 00:50:34,059 'The world was dark and gray and Pinky was scared. 522 00:50:35,269 --> 00:50:36,979 But she was also very brave. 523 00:50:37,646 --> 00:50:41,567 Pinky climbed piece by piece to the top of the tower. 524 00:50:41,650 --> 00:50:45,696 She stuck her finger in the keyhole and then turned it over. 525 00:50:45,779 --> 00:50:48,782 The bell began to ring and vibrate. 526 00:50:48,866 --> 00:50:50,659 The merry-go-round started turning. 527 00:50:50,743 --> 00:50:54,163 Suddenly there came a huge rainbow. 528 00:50:54,246 --> 00:50:57,750 The sky turned blue, the grass turned green. 529 00:50:57,833 --> 00:51:01,795 The flowers were pink, purple, yellow and red. 530 00:51:02,379 --> 00:51:04,715 The world was bright in color. 531 00:51:05,466 --> 00:51:07,551 And Pinky wasn't afraid anymore.' 532 00:51:10,763 --> 00:51:12,848 Raise your hand if you are afraid of the dark. 533 00:51:12,931 --> 00:51:14,433 I. -Afraid of the dark? 534 00:51:14,516 --> 00:51:15,642 Yes. -Why? 535 00:51:15,726 --> 00:51:17,561 Monsters. -Monsters. 536 00:51:17,644 --> 00:51:18,812 What are you doing? 537 00:51:18,896 --> 00:51:22,524 My mom tells everyone that has monsters in his head. 538 00:51:22,608 --> 00:51:24,860 Like my monster at night emerges... 539 00:51:24,943 --> 00:51:29,615 I just have to close my eyes and tell him to go away. 540 00:51:30,908 --> 00:51:31,992 Does it work? 541 00:51:32,534 --> 00:51:34,411 Sometimes. -Sometimes. 542 00:51:34,995 --> 00:51:38,957 You know, when I was your age, I was also very afraid of monsters. 543 00:51:39,041 --> 00:51:42,377 Before going to sleep I looked at the stars... 544 00:51:42,461 --> 00:51:44,797 and I chose a star to make a wish. 545 00:51:44,880 --> 00:51:47,341 I wished for a best friend. 546 00:51:47,424 --> 00:51:50,928 I wanted a best friend supported me and stayed with me. 547 00:51:51,011 --> 00:51:53,138 I wanted someone to share secrets. 548 00:51:53,222 --> 00:51:55,849 Someone who would help me kill the monsters. 549 00:51:57,309 --> 00:52:00,646 It took a long time Before I had a best friend... 550 00:52:00,729 --> 00:52:02,564 because she didn't exist. 551 00:52:04,233 --> 00:52:05,567 I made her up. 552 00:52:07,486 --> 00:52:08,737 And now she is... 553 00:52:10,322 --> 00:52:11,782 always with me. 554 00:52:13,909 --> 00:52:14,868 I have an idea. 555 00:52:14,952 --> 00:52:19,373 We all will draw our own monster slayer? 556 00:52:19,456 --> 00:52:20,624 What do you think? 557 00:52:25,170 --> 00:52:28,549 When I was little, I thought that a fairy lived in every clock. 558 00:52:28,632 --> 00:52:31,135 It was up to him to make time move. 559 00:52:32,386 --> 00:52:34,763 Real? -I often worried. 560 00:52:34,847 --> 00:52:37,724 "Suppose he falls asleep." So I stayed up as late as possible... 561 00:52:37,850 --> 00:52:41,353 to make sure the elf stayed awake and time moved. 562 00:52:42,438 --> 00:52:45,315 A big responsibility for an elf. 563 00:52:45,399 --> 00:52:48,235 Yes. I was a funny kid. 564 00:52:52,489 --> 00:52:53,615 What do we get? 565 00:52:55,743 --> 00:52:57,077 Are you sure? -Yes. 566 00:52:57,911 --> 00:53:00,581 Yes. -I wasn't allowed to tell you. 567 00:53:01,290 --> 00:53:05,419 Tell me if it's a boy and not if it's a girl. 568 00:53:16,555 --> 00:53:18,182 A girl? -Yes. 569 00:53:20,434 --> 00:53:21,852 A little girl? -Yes. 570 00:53:23,061 --> 00:53:25,355 Hello, girl. -A girl. 571 00:53:28,776 --> 00:53:29,943 It's going to be a girl. 572 00:53:32,821 --> 00:53:35,783 I can't have a daughter. 573 00:53:37,242 --> 00:53:39,453 I can't have a daughter. What if she doesn't like me? 574 00:53:40,162 --> 00:53:43,749 She will love you. -What if she doesn't like my hair? 575 00:53:43,832 --> 00:53:46,668 She'll love it. -What if she doesn't like my voice? 576 00:53:46,752 --> 00:53:49,379 What if my voice makes her cry? Oh my god. 577 00:53:49,463 --> 00:53:51,882 Julie, take a deep breath. 578 00:53:51,965 --> 00:53:54,051 I... -Hey, look at me. 579 00:53:54,134 --> 00:53:56,178 This is beautiful. This is great. 580 00:53:58,388 --> 00:54:00,599 Julie, it's okay. 581 00:54:00,682 --> 00:54:03,769 It's okay. Look at me. It'll be fine. 582 00:54:03,852 --> 00:54:05,521 It's okay. Take a deep breath. 583 00:54:05,604 --> 00:54:08,524 Good? It's okay. It'll be fine. 584 00:54:09,566 --> 00:54:10,734 It'll be fine. 585 00:54:17,574 --> 00:54:19,952 Tell him what happened today happened in the park. 586 00:54:20,035 --> 00:54:21,412 I don't know... -Say it, Julie. 587 00:54:21,495 --> 00:54:23,956 He makes it bigger than it is. 588 00:54:24,039 --> 00:54:29,044 It's easy for me, right? I constantly wonder if things are going well. 589 00:54:29,128 --> 00:54:32,172 I have no idea, because she is good at pretending. 590 00:54:32,840 --> 00:54:35,384 But today I saw it briefly. 591 00:54:36,510 --> 00:54:39,430 She couldn't pretend. I know it won't work. 592 00:54:39,513 --> 00:54:41,723 It's not possible. -I... 593 00:54:42,808 --> 00:54:46,728 I'm emotional because I'm pregnant. That seems pretty normal to me. 594 00:54:46,812 --> 00:54:49,231 Don't say that. Don't lie. 595 00:54:50,149 --> 00:54:51,108 Excuse me? 596 00:54:51,942 --> 00:54:54,611 I'm not the liar here. 597 00:54:56,363 --> 00:54:58,574 What does that mean? Why am I lying? 598 00:54:59,116 --> 00:55:00,242 Why am I lying? 599 00:55:01,285 --> 00:55:02,411 Why do you love me? 600 00:55:04,079 --> 00:55:05,038 Why do you love me? 601 00:55:05,956 --> 00:55:06,790 Look at me. 602 00:55:08,417 --> 00:55:11,795 You always want me just look into the eyes... 603 00:55:11,879 --> 00:55:13,464 and now you look away? 604 00:55:14,715 --> 00:55:16,258 Because it's scary, right? 605 00:55:16,925 --> 00:55:18,594 I told you. 606 00:55:18,677 --> 00:55:21,221 I said you would look away. I warned him. 607 00:55:21,305 --> 00:55:26,685 That if he really saw how ugly i am... 608 00:55:27,853 --> 00:55:29,938 that he had to look away. 609 00:55:32,524 --> 00:55:33,525 And I was right. 610 00:55:35,027 --> 00:55:36,653 So you're the liar. 611 00:55:42,242 --> 00:55:45,746 Tell me what happened that day. 612 00:55:52,044 --> 00:55:53,295 "Hello, trains." 613 00:55:53,378 --> 00:55:56,465 Finished? On three say: 'Hello, trains.' 614 00:55:57,299 --> 00:56:01,261 Whenever I'm alone, I'm afraid something will happen to Teddy. 615 00:56:01,345 --> 00:56:04,431 Just say: 'Hello, kitchen.' 616 00:56:04,515 --> 00:56:07,184 I'm afraid he's suffocating when I feed him. 617 00:56:07,267 --> 00:56:09,311 Thank you. Yes. 618 00:56:09,394 --> 00:56:12,397 When I see someone with tea or warm water... 619 00:56:12,481 --> 00:56:14,024 I'm afraid it will fall on him. 620 00:56:14,108 --> 00:56:17,194 That he gets hurt, because I didn't protect him. 621 00:56:17,277 --> 00:56:19,947 Everything packed? Ready to go? 622 00:56:21,573 --> 00:56:22,616 I need a moment. 623 00:56:25,911 --> 00:56:27,162 We're downstairs. 624 00:56:28,247 --> 00:56:32,418 Every time I give him a bath, I think: what if he drowns? 625 00:56:33,919 --> 00:56:38,799 What happens if I look away for a moment and he drowns? 626 00:56:54,231 --> 00:56:56,984 When I think he's looking up at me... 627 00:56:57,067 --> 00:57:02,698 with those brave, trustworthy eyes... 628 00:57:04,366 --> 00:57:05,534 I keep hearing: 629 00:57:07,453 --> 00:57:08,787 you will fail. 630 00:57:11,039 --> 00:57:12,541 You have no choice but to fail. 631 00:57:14,585 --> 00:57:17,921 And the thought that I am him let down. 632 00:57:21,842 --> 00:57:27,014 Then I think: we all fail. 633 00:57:28,056 --> 00:57:29,308 Anyway. 634 00:57:30,684 --> 00:57:32,352 We're all going to die. 635 00:57:35,856 --> 00:57:38,567 So that morning I knew that your sister would come. 636 00:57:38,650 --> 00:57:40,986 I thought: just do it. 637 00:57:42,529 --> 00:57:44,823 Lucy comes over. She will take care of him. 638 00:57:44,907 --> 00:57:47,868 Do it now, before you change your mind. 639 00:57:50,370 --> 00:57:52,748 Because he is safer in the world without you. 640 00:59:15,038 --> 00:59:17,750 Only you can burn by a therapy lamp. 641 00:59:19,251 --> 00:59:20,419 Do you have a moment? 642 00:59:21,378 --> 00:59:22,379 Really, again? 643 00:59:22,463 --> 00:59:23,630 Please. -I... 644 00:59:23,714 --> 00:59:26,341 have nothing more to say. -Just for a moment. 645 00:59:28,594 --> 00:59:30,137 Oh my god. -Okay. 646 00:59:30,929 --> 00:59:34,099 Don't know. Gloria Steinem had her daughter's room wasn't painted pink. 647 00:59:34,183 --> 00:59:36,185 Gloria Steinem had no children. 648 00:59:36,268 --> 00:59:38,979 What if pink asks too much of her? 649 00:59:39,062 --> 00:59:42,608 Maybe she's a tomboy and makes pink hair feel bad. 650 00:59:42,691 --> 00:59:44,359 As if she isn't pink enough. 651 00:59:44,443 --> 00:59:47,321 Then you ruined her life. -I'm serious. This is serious. 652 00:59:47,404 --> 00:59:51,533 It's very important. I don't believe in the color pink. 653 00:59:52,159 --> 00:59:54,161 Does that exist? Believe in pink? 654 00:59:54,244 --> 00:59:56,872 Ethan? -I'm taking this very seriously, okay? 655 00:59:56,955 --> 00:59:59,458 I take it seriously every time. 656 00:59:59,541 --> 01:00:02,086 It wasn't that often. -It was very often. 657 01:00:02,169 --> 01:00:05,255 You know what? Thank you for your patience. 658 01:00:05,339 --> 01:00:07,174 How about this? I have an idea. 659 01:00:08,217 --> 01:00:12,012 Eyes closed, stretch out and point to a color. 660 01:00:12,096 --> 01:00:14,306 Go ahead. Ways. 661 01:00:15,307 --> 01:00:17,017 Point to one. -Okay. 662 01:00:17,851 --> 01:00:20,187 What is it? Flower pink. -Floral pink. 663 01:00:21,146 --> 01:00:21,980 Flower pink. 664 01:00:22,064 --> 01:00:25,275 Great. I'm going to get six liters of flower pink. 665 01:00:25,359 --> 01:00:28,821 Or else I'll paint it over. Good? -Yes. 666 01:00:29,822 --> 01:00:31,740 We have to get Teddy dressed and go. 667 01:00:33,992 --> 01:00:35,244 Do I look normal? 668 01:00:40,749 --> 01:00:42,292 Not that again. 669 01:00:51,927 --> 01:00:52,928 show-off. 670 01:00:54,388 --> 01:00:57,349 Guys, this is so cute. Thank you. 671 01:00:57,933 --> 01:00:58,809 Don't mention it. 672 01:01:01,687 --> 01:01:04,189 Don't worry, Ellie is so good with him. 673 01:01:05,107 --> 01:01:05,941 I know. 674 01:01:06,984 --> 01:01:07,818 I know. 675 01:01:12,448 --> 01:01:13,532 Okay, say. 676 01:01:13,615 --> 01:01:15,200 Thank you. Look at the ball. 677 01:01:16,410 --> 01:01:17,661 Iced tea? 678 01:01:17,745 --> 01:01:19,163 Yes, please. 679 01:01:19,246 --> 01:01:20,372 No, thank you. 680 01:01:20,456 --> 01:01:21,915 Why not? Nothing happens. 681 01:01:21,999 --> 01:01:23,709 Caffeine can be good for you. 682 01:01:24,251 --> 01:01:25,502 I'm jealous. -Yes. 683 01:01:25,586 --> 01:01:30,090 Nick and I don't want any more and that has many positive aspects. 684 01:01:30,174 --> 01:01:31,508 No diapers. 685 01:01:31,592 --> 01:01:34,553 But I miss having a baby. 686 01:01:34,636 --> 01:01:38,348 I miss that feeling of breastfeeding. 687 01:01:38,432 --> 01:01:40,726 Oh god, that's amazing. 688 01:01:40,809 --> 01:01:42,352 Are you going to breastfeed? 689 01:01:43,562 --> 01:01:46,648 Is that safe? Is that possible? Can you breastfeed? 690 01:01:46,732 --> 01:01:47,941 Are you sure? 691 01:01:48,984 --> 01:01:50,360 I don't judge. -If he... 692 01:01:50,444 --> 01:01:51,779 I don't judge. 693 01:01:56,492 --> 01:01:58,577 Have you gone crazy? I say... 694 01:01:59,495 --> 01:02:01,455 Yes. Absolute. -I know. 695 01:02:03,707 --> 01:02:04,541 Teddy? 696 01:02:04,625 --> 01:02:07,086 Sorry. Sorry, can you please be careful? 697 01:02:07,169 --> 01:02:08,629 Come here. 698 01:02:08,712 --> 01:02:09,671 It's okay. 699 01:02:10,339 --> 01:02:11,965 Hey, are you okay? 700 01:02:12,049 --> 01:02:14,176 Yes, we have to go. 701 01:02:14,760 --> 01:02:16,762 Good. -Come on. 702 01:02:16,845 --> 01:02:18,013 Sorry, honey. 703 01:02:18,097 --> 01:02:20,641 Excuse me. Come on, boy. 704 01:02:24,353 --> 01:02:28,107 I know I'm sick and need medication. 705 01:02:29,191 --> 01:02:31,151 I feel like I'm disappointing her. 706 01:02:31,235 --> 01:02:35,155 Many people were bottle-fed and they love their mother too. 707 01:02:35,239 --> 01:02:39,076 Got it? You become anyway a wonderful mother. 708 01:02:39,159 --> 01:02:42,538 Whether you breastfeed her or not. Good? 709 01:02:45,165 --> 01:02:48,627 I don't know how to care that she feels connected. 710 01:02:48,710 --> 01:02:50,963 How do I make her feel safe? 711 01:02:54,425 --> 01:02:58,512 How many times does she have to pay? because I'm her mother? 712 01:03:03,100 --> 01:03:05,644 Sometimes I close my eyes and I see her in front of me. 713 01:03:06,478 --> 01:03:09,481 Running through a field of flowers in a white dress. 714 01:03:10,524 --> 01:03:15,946 Met haar armen open en dan denk ik: dat wil ik haar ook geven. 715 01:03:17,281 --> 01:03:20,451 Ik wil dat ze kan lachen zonder angst. 716 01:03:24,997 --> 01:03:25,831 Then I think: 717 01:03:27,750 --> 01:03:29,293 hoe moet ik haar dat leren... 718 01:03:30,711 --> 01:03:32,045 als ik niet weet hoe dat moet? 719 01:03:34,256 --> 01:03:35,841 Ik weet niet meer hoe het was... 720 01:03:38,552 --> 01:03:39,720 to laugh like that. 721 01:03:40,804 --> 01:03:44,016 Hello, friend. That was a long time ago. My goodness. 722 01:03:59,740 --> 01:04:02,367 IF YOU FIND ME, STUUR ME DAN TERUG NAAR JULIE 723 01:04:03,160 --> 01:04:06,121 LAAT ME WETEN HOE VER JE VLOOG 724 01:04:20,427 --> 01:04:22,429 Kun je een slaapliedje voor me zingen? 725 01:04:24,556 --> 01:04:25,933 'Nachtbloem', toch? 726 01:04:27,101 --> 01:04:28,185 Come here. 727 01:04:30,229 --> 01:04:31,814 Can I make a wish? 728 01:04:32,523 --> 01:04:33,357 Of course. 729 01:04:34,858 --> 01:04:36,193 What did you wish? 730 01:04:36,819 --> 01:04:38,779 That you always love me. 731 01:04:40,447 --> 01:04:41,907 Dear. 732 01:04:42,991 --> 01:04:45,411 You don't have to waste a wish on that. 733 01:04:46,662 --> 01:04:48,080 I will always love you. 734 01:04:55,295 --> 01:04:57,673 Hi, Rosie. We're going to bed. 735 01:04:57,756 --> 01:04:58,674 Rosie. 736 01:05:01,176 --> 01:05:02,428 Hi, Rosie. 737 01:05:03,345 --> 01:05:04,972 Can I make a wish? 738 01:05:05,055 --> 01:05:08,725 Is there a reason you did that? Is there a reason for that? 739 01:05:08,809 --> 01:05:11,728 Look at me. Do you think that hurt? 740 01:05:39,006 --> 01:05:40,549 You have to eat something. 741 01:05:46,221 --> 01:05:47,806 Come. -Is he in bed? 742 01:05:47,890 --> 01:05:49,141 Yes. -Good. 743 01:05:51,143 --> 01:05:53,479 He's in bed. I cooked for you. 744 01:05:55,147 --> 01:05:56,398 I've done everything. 745 01:06:03,447 --> 01:06:05,240 Can you tell me something about it? 746 01:06:06,116 --> 01:06:07,534 What you have so far. 747 01:06:08,077 --> 01:06:12,331 I did make a moon picnic. Come on, I need a story. 748 01:06:12,414 --> 01:06:13,791 I prefer to do this. 749 01:06:14,500 --> 01:06:16,210 Your pancakes are very tasty. 750 01:06:16,293 --> 01:06:18,170 Thank you. I'm proud of it. 751 01:06:18,253 --> 01:06:22,049 Well, the story is called Pinky Tinkerbink saves the stars. 752 01:06:22,549 --> 01:06:23,717 Very nice. 753 01:06:23,801 --> 01:06:25,385 Yes? -Yes. 754 01:06:26,970 --> 01:06:30,057 Once upon a time there was a star monster. 755 01:06:32,309 --> 01:06:37,439 He got the stars one by one from the sky. 756 01:06:38,398 --> 01:06:41,610 Every time he takes one, he puts it against his chest. 757 01:06:41,693 --> 01:06:48,117 They go into his body and then glow very clear from his stomach. 758 01:06:50,619 --> 01:06:54,998 And our heroine, a little girl called Pinky Tinkerbink... 759 01:06:55,082 --> 01:06:55,999 Tinkerbink. 760 01:06:57,042 --> 01:06:58,585 ...is very sad. 761 01:06:58,669 --> 01:07:00,337 Why is she sad? 762 01:07:00,421 --> 01:07:03,132 Because the star monster takes all the stars out of the sky. 763 01:07:03,966 --> 01:07:05,968 How can she possibly wish for anything? 764 01:07:07,386 --> 01:07:10,973 She tries to figure out how can get all the stars back in the sky. 765 01:07:11,765 --> 01:07:13,016 She thinks: 766 01:07:13,934 --> 01:07:17,146 okay, lights glow just like the stars. 767 01:07:18,230 --> 01:07:20,274 So she removes all the lights from her house. 768 01:07:21,191 --> 01:07:24,903 She throws them into the air one by one and they all fall down. 769 01:07:26,155 --> 01:07:28,031 She keeps thinking... 770 01:07:28,115 --> 01:07:32,494 and realizes that diamonds just as shine as the stars. 771 01:07:32,995 --> 01:07:36,373 So she gets all the diamonds from her tiara 772 01:07:36,999 --> 01:07:38,751 She grabs her slingshot... 773 01:07:38,834 --> 01:07:43,547 and shoots them into the air one by one. 774 01:07:43,630 --> 01:07:48,761 They fly much further than the light bulbs. 775 01:07:48,844 --> 01:07:50,179 But they don't get far enough. 776 01:07:50,763 --> 01:07:52,514 They're all raining down on her. 777 01:07:53,849 --> 01:07:56,310 Pinky thinks even further. 778 01:07:56,393 --> 01:08:00,606 Then she thinks: lemons. They are just as yellow as the stars. 779 01:08:00,689 --> 01:08:02,274 But lemons are heavy. 780 01:08:03,025 --> 01:08:03,859 So... 781 01:08:03,942 --> 01:08:07,988 she finds a leaf blower under a pile of old leaves. 782 01:08:08,072 --> 01:08:10,324 She does the lemons in her leaf blower. 783 01:08:10,407 --> 01:08:15,079 She fires lemons from her leaf blower, because it is extremely powerful. 784 01:08:15,162 --> 01:08:19,875 The lemons fly up and go beyond the diamonds. 785 01:08:19,958 --> 01:08:23,587 Beyond the light bulbs. But they don't go far enough. 786 01:08:24,088 --> 01:08:26,173 And then they crash on Pinky. 787 01:08:27,466 --> 01:08:29,468 She didn't know what to do. 788 01:08:29,551 --> 01:08:32,012 There was nothing to wish for, not just for her... 789 01:08:32,096 --> 01:08:36,892 but for all the little children the world. And for all the big kids. 790 01:08:38,310 --> 01:08:41,813 The world would be without stars be a dark, hopeless place. 791 01:08:45,942 --> 01:08:47,444 What did she wish? 792 01:08:53,866 --> 01:08:57,830 Julie, if you're ready, you have to push hard one more time. 793 01:08:57,913 --> 01:08:59,873 Okay. -Press. 794 01:08:59,957 --> 01:09:01,500 Go on. 795 01:09:02,084 --> 01:09:03,252 Everything you have. 796 01:09:04,128 --> 01:09:07,297 Louder. Go on. Keep pushing. -Good for you, darling. 797 01:09:07,381 --> 01:09:08,841 Go on. -Press. 798 01:09:14,721 --> 01:09:15,597 What? 799 01:09:16,932 --> 01:09:20,811 You made a good one. -Is she okay? 800 01:09:20,893 --> 01:09:22,728 She's fine. It's okay. 801 01:09:24,147 --> 01:09:25,691 That wasn't too bad, right? 802 01:09:27,735 --> 01:09:28,736 She's perfect. 803 01:09:29,486 --> 01:09:30,654 She's beautiful. 804 01:09:30,737 --> 01:09:31,655 She's perfect. 805 01:09:32,573 --> 01:09:34,533 She's so perfect. 806 01:09:35,951 --> 01:09:36,994 It's over. 807 01:09:45,169 --> 01:09:47,170 Mom does this for you. 808 01:09:49,714 --> 01:09:50,549 Yes. 809 01:09:51,592 --> 01:09:53,552 You can have that. 810 01:10:05,230 --> 01:10:08,942 You know, there's nothing wrong with a bottle. 811 01:10:15,282 --> 01:10:16,158 Babies. 812 01:10:18,368 --> 01:10:22,164 They come into this world as trusting little beings. 813 01:10:27,127 --> 01:10:29,129 I remember when you were born. 814 01:10:31,298 --> 01:10:32,633 You looked at me... 815 01:10:34,093 --> 01:10:36,303 and believed I had all the answers. 816 01:10:39,431 --> 01:10:41,892 I remember how brave I thought you were... 817 01:10:44,728 --> 01:10:45,938 to believe that. 818 01:10:49,817 --> 01:10:50,692 Jule? 819 01:10:51,610 --> 01:10:54,530 I'm sorry didn't have all the answers. 820 01:10:56,281 --> 01:10:57,324 I know, Mom. 821 01:10:58,075 --> 01:11:00,953 But you do. You always have. 822 01:11:02,663 --> 01:11:04,206 That was my mistake. 823 01:11:05,040 --> 01:11:07,126 Asking you for answers. 824 01:11:10,379 --> 01:11:12,005 But you can do this, Jule. 825 01:11:12,589 --> 01:11:13,715 You can do it. 826 01:11:15,050 --> 01:11:16,718 She'll be fine. 827 01:11:17,428 --> 01:11:19,012 You'll be fine. 828 01:11:19,555 --> 01:11:21,682 Even I can manage. 829 01:11:22,641 --> 01:11:26,728 Think of all those widowers who would love to remarry. 830 01:11:28,605 --> 01:11:29,731 I love you, mom. 831 01:11:30,899 --> 01:11:32,067 You're my baby. 832 01:11:34,027 --> 01:11:38,866 I have a big brother who would like to meet his little sister. 833 01:11:40,576 --> 01:11:42,995 This is your little sister. 834 01:11:43,078 --> 01:11:45,581 You have to protect her, big brother. 835 01:11:45,664 --> 01:11:46,957 Will that work? 836 01:11:48,584 --> 01:11:49,793 Of course. 837 01:11:49,877 --> 01:11:51,295 Do you want to touch her? 838 01:11:51,378 --> 01:11:53,005 Do you want to touch the baby? -Come here. 839 01:11:53,088 --> 01:11:53,964 Just say hello. 840 01:11:55,132 --> 01:11:56,717 Come here. -There she is. 841 01:11:57,551 --> 01:12:00,637 Yes. I have a balloon for you. -Who is that? 842 01:12:00,721 --> 01:12:02,389 This needs to be filmed. 843 01:12:03,640 --> 01:12:07,978 Today is October 9, 1995. 844 01:12:09,980 --> 01:12:13,859 We just got a new member welcomed into our family. 845 01:12:14,568 --> 01:12:15,944 This is Rachel. 846 01:12:16,028 --> 01:12:18,238 She is happy to be here. -Hey, honey. 847 01:12:18,322 --> 01:12:22,701 She weighed 3430 grams. -3400 grams. 848 01:12:22,785 --> 01:12:24,745 3400 grams. -She'll get there. 849 01:12:24,828 --> 01:12:29,958 Born at 9:48 p.m. -9:48 p.m. 850 01:12:30,042 --> 01:12:32,961 Say, "Hi, Rachel." -Sorry to bother you. 851 01:12:34,046 --> 01:12:35,589 It's bath time. 852 01:12:35,672 --> 01:12:38,634 Bath time. -Teddy, let's look at the bath. 853 01:12:38,717 --> 01:12:41,845 Let's look at the bath. -Yes, go with grandma. 854 01:12:41,929 --> 01:12:43,806 I'll put her in. 855 01:12:43,889 --> 01:12:46,141 She's sleeping. -It'll be fine. 856 01:12:46,225 --> 01:12:49,436 She's sleeping. -Look at that baby. Do you see her? 857 01:12:50,062 --> 01:12:52,481 Do you see her? -Have a nice bath, darling. 858 01:12:52,564 --> 01:12:54,149 That's your sister. 859 01:12:54,233 --> 01:12:55,609 Isn't she fantastic? 860 01:12:55,692 --> 01:12:56,777 Thank you. -Thank you. 861 01:12:57,277 --> 01:12:59,405 We'll be right back. -Okay. 862 01:13:10,040 --> 01:13:11,375 Have you taken your medication? 863 01:13:13,669 --> 01:13:16,338 No, it's in my weekend bag. 864 01:13:32,354 --> 01:13:33,897 But I'm not going to take them. 865 01:13:36,233 --> 01:13:38,402 Six weeks, that's all I need. 866 01:13:38,485 --> 01:13:42,406 I did it for nine months, so what difference does six weeks make? 867 01:13:42,489 --> 01:13:44,366 I promise I'll take them. -Jule? 868 01:13:44,450 --> 01:13:46,201 I really do. 869 01:13:46,285 --> 01:13:49,371 I know I have to help myself first. I understand that. 870 01:13:49,455 --> 01:13:54,460 When I feel like I'm going crazy, they are there. 871 01:13:54,543 --> 01:13:56,378 Then I'll take them right away. 872 01:13:58,505 --> 01:14:01,925 Promise. I know it isn't smart, but is it right? 873 01:14:02,009 --> 01:14:04,052 No, it's not. 874 01:14:05,596 --> 01:14:07,514 I'm not doing this again. 875 01:14:08,056 --> 01:14:10,601 Your promise means nothing. 876 01:14:11,393 --> 01:14:15,439 You left our kid fucking alone in a walking chair. 877 01:14:18,442 --> 01:14:22,196 Are you starting to talk about that now? -Don't act like I'm the asshole. 878 01:14:22,279 --> 01:14:24,948 The past year I walk on eggshells with you. 879 01:14:25,032 --> 01:14:26,867 Because I keep the agreement. 880 01:14:26,950 --> 01:14:29,286 It's not fair that you're starting to talk about it now. 881 01:14:29,369 --> 01:14:32,289 Don't talk about honesty. This isn't about you. 882 01:14:36,418 --> 01:14:39,171 It's not about you. It's about them. 883 01:14:40,422 --> 01:14:41,340 Yes. 884 01:14:59,942 --> 01:15:01,235 Are you happy now? 885 01:15:18,919 --> 01:15:20,379 I'm going to them. 886 01:15:22,047 --> 01:15:22,881 Ethan? 887 01:15:26,552 --> 01:15:29,304 I can't take it. 888 01:15:31,682 --> 01:15:32,850 I can't do that. 889 01:15:33,892 --> 01:15:35,978 If you see something going wrong, it's done. 890 01:15:37,146 --> 01:15:38,272 I promise. 891 01:15:38,856 --> 01:15:41,984 Then you can look under my tongue. I can't do it now. 892 01:16:49,384 --> 01:16:52,930 Do you have another piece of chalk? Can I have that? 893 01:16:53,806 --> 01:16:55,057 That's very good. 894 01:16:55,933 --> 01:16:57,059 Nicely colored. 895 01:16:57,142 --> 01:16:59,103 And this color? Do you want this one? 896 01:16:59,728 --> 01:17:02,189 I can give you this one. I don't mind. 897 01:17:03,607 --> 01:17:04,817 Where's my big boy? 898 01:17:05,359 --> 01:17:07,403 Hi. -Hi, boyfriend. 899 01:17:07,486 --> 01:17:09,029 She's sleeping. -Yes. 900 01:17:11,532 --> 01:17:13,075 This looks beautiful. 901 01:17:14,701 --> 01:17:17,287 Are these the new things? -Some do. 902 01:17:20,416 --> 01:17:23,127 Another four-poster bed? -Yes. 903 01:17:25,087 --> 01:17:27,673 Is that the star monster? -Do you see that? 904 01:17:29,007 --> 01:17:30,592 How scary. -Bad guy. 905 01:17:33,846 --> 01:17:34,847 No stars. 906 01:17:34,930 --> 01:17:38,308 No stars. But I'm working on something happy now. 907 01:17:38,392 --> 01:17:41,270 Let me see that. -No, not yet. A surprise. 908 01:17:41,854 --> 01:17:42,729 For later. 909 01:17:45,566 --> 01:17:46,775 I have to go. -I know. 910 01:17:46,859 --> 01:17:47,693 Day. 911 01:17:49,319 --> 01:17:50,195 Bye, buddy. 912 01:17:52,281 --> 01:17:53,741 Have a nice day at work. -Day. 913 01:18:01,123 --> 01:18:02,332 Everything is fine. 914 01:18:03,625 --> 01:18:04,460 Good? 915 01:18:05,711 --> 01:18:06,837 Good. -No problem. 916 01:18:06,920 --> 01:18:08,046 Okay, bye. 917 01:18:08,130 --> 01:18:09,965 Don't worry. -Okay. 918 01:18:10,048 --> 01:18:12,384 Have a nice day at work. -Day. 919 01:18:16,138 --> 01:18:17,055 Bye, Dad. 920 01:18:33,363 --> 01:18:35,949 I think I see grandma coming. 921 01:18:37,326 --> 01:18:39,870 Is that grandma? 922 01:18:40,370 --> 01:18:43,207 Is that grandma? Grandma is here. 923 01:18:43,290 --> 01:18:44,249 Come on. 924 01:18:46,376 --> 01:18:47,920 I'm coming, Mom. 925 01:18:49,004 --> 01:18:50,172 Calm down. 926 01:18:51,715 --> 01:18:53,300 Mom, I'm coming. 927 01:18:53,383 --> 01:18:55,761 Well done. 928 01:18:58,514 --> 01:19:02,476 Hi, Teddy. Hello, my little boy. 929 01:19:02,559 --> 01:19:04,812 Don't you say hello to grandma? 930 01:19:10,526 --> 01:19:12,069 He wanted to come home. 931 01:19:13,487 --> 01:19:15,989 You didn't commit, did you? Did you say yes? 932 01:19:18,200 --> 01:19:19,576 I didn't say no. 933 01:19:21,245 --> 01:19:22,371 Be nice, Jule. 934 01:19:23,831 --> 01:19:26,417 He is your only father. -Yes. 935 01:19:27,126 --> 01:19:29,586 Hey, look. Come here, honey. 936 01:19:30,170 --> 01:19:32,214 Here's your grandpa. 937 01:19:40,597 --> 01:19:42,307 Mom says you're looking for a painter. 938 01:20:28,270 --> 01:20:30,773 This is just like the view from your old room. 939 01:20:35,736 --> 01:20:36,737 Do you remember this one? 940 01:20:42,117 --> 01:20:43,410 Yes, of course. 941 01:20:48,916 --> 01:20:51,251 They were inside your house too. 942 01:21:02,346 --> 01:21:04,264 The paint fumes are probably not good for her. 943 01:21:04,348 --> 01:21:06,350 It's latex, don't worry. 944 01:21:06,433 --> 01:21:09,019 Hey, mom? -We're in Teddy's room. Guard. 945 01:21:09,103 --> 01:21:10,479 We're not done yet. -Oh, okay. 946 01:21:10,562 --> 01:21:12,815 Okay. It's a bird. It's an airplane. 947 01:21:12,898 --> 01:21:15,776 It's Superman. 948 01:21:15,859 --> 01:21:17,569 Look at you. 949 01:21:17,653 --> 01:21:20,697 I love you. You look so good. -Fantastic. 950 01:21:20,781 --> 01:21:22,282 You look so good. 951 01:21:22,866 --> 01:21:25,202 Come here. -Mom always loved Halloween. 952 01:21:25,285 --> 01:21:27,955 We're going to get changed. -What's wrong, honey? 953 01:21:28,038 --> 01:21:31,375 She needs to be changed. -Will you help me? 954 01:21:31,458 --> 01:21:33,377 I help Dad paint. -Okay, fine. 955 01:21:33,877 --> 01:21:36,255 Hello, honey. Hello, girl. 956 01:21:36,338 --> 01:21:38,298 Yes, I love you. Are you going to help me? 957 01:21:39,800 --> 01:21:40,843 My goodness. 958 01:22:02,156 --> 01:22:03,282 Beautiful color. 959 01:22:04,032 --> 01:22:04,950 I hope so. 960 01:22:05,993 --> 01:22:07,369 I'll help you out. 961 01:22:09,538 --> 01:22:11,081 You have to use this. 962 01:22:13,333 --> 01:22:16,336 Hold it like this. 963 01:22:16,420 --> 01:22:17,463 Okay, I will. 964 01:22:18,255 --> 01:22:19,715 Look, like this. 965 01:22:19,798 --> 01:22:24,636 The man from the paint store said that these were lint-free rollers... 966 01:22:24,720 --> 01:22:27,681 but rollers are never lint-free. 967 01:22:27,765 --> 01:22:30,601 We don't want lint on the wall. 968 01:22:30,684 --> 01:22:32,561 Get this. Give it. 969 01:22:35,773 --> 01:22:38,776 And now as I taught you. 970 01:22:38,859 --> 01:22:39,902 Just... 971 01:22:41,278 --> 01:22:42,613 Shape. 972 01:22:44,114 --> 01:22:45,365 Spread. 973 01:22:46,241 --> 01:22:48,035 And then spread. 974 01:22:50,537 --> 01:22:51,371 Good. 975 01:22:53,332 --> 01:22:54,750 Perfect every time. 976 01:22:55,918 --> 01:22:56,752 That's it. 977 01:23:01,340 --> 01:23:02,299 Well done. 978 01:23:11,600 --> 01:23:14,061 I'm so sorry, flower. 979 01:23:21,610 --> 01:23:22,736 I'm sorry. 980 01:23:23,445 --> 01:23:25,280 I'm so sorry. 981 01:24:33,223 --> 01:24:34,600 That one's for you. 982 01:24:35,225 --> 01:24:36,101 Plop. 983 01:24:38,937 --> 01:24:40,439 Wow, so big. 984 01:24:40,522 --> 01:24:42,191 There is nothing left. 985 01:24:42,941 --> 01:24:46,153 Mom has to get more. Mom has to go get more. 986 01:24:46,653 --> 01:24:48,363 It's okay. Okay, come on. 987 01:24:49,031 --> 01:24:50,908 Do you want milk? 988 01:24:54,161 --> 01:24:56,455 Okay, good. You're holding my hair. 989 01:25:02,377 --> 01:25:03,295 Okay, baby. 990 01:25:04,630 --> 01:25:07,466 Come on, what do you need? 991 01:25:08,509 --> 01:25:11,512 What do you need? What do you want? 992 01:25:12,012 --> 01:25:14,431 Yes, I know. I'm doing my best. I'm trying. 993 01:25:19,686 --> 01:25:20,521 It's okay. 994 01:25:24,399 --> 01:25:25,943 We'll grab your bottle. 995 01:25:31,782 --> 01:25:34,368 Teddy, I'm here. 996 01:25:35,619 --> 01:25:37,496 It's already coming. 997 01:25:40,707 --> 01:25:42,459 It's coming. It's okay. 998 01:25:44,128 --> 01:25:45,504 What am I doing wrong? 999 01:25:57,808 --> 01:25:59,935 Teddy, I'm here. 1000 01:26:00,018 --> 01:26:01,854 Come on, now. 1001 01:26:04,815 --> 01:26:07,317 Girl, please stop crying. 1002 01:26:30,132 --> 01:26:31,633 You've already thrown all the stones. 1003 01:26:33,177 --> 01:26:34,678 They're already downstairs. 1004 01:26:36,263 --> 01:26:37,347 Go get them. 1005 01:26:39,391 --> 01:26:40,267 Go ahead. 1006 01:26:41,185 --> 01:26:43,061 Bye, guys. -Hi. 1007 01:26:43,145 --> 01:26:46,064 There's daddy. There he is. 1008 01:26:46,690 --> 01:26:49,485 You're home so early. There he is. 1009 01:26:51,361 --> 01:26:52,780 How are you? -Good. 1010 01:26:52,863 --> 01:26:53,697 Good. -Yes. 1011 01:26:53,781 --> 01:26:55,699 Her room looks good. -Great. 1012 01:26:55,783 --> 01:26:58,535 We have chosen a good color. It's so beautiful. 1013 01:26:59,119 --> 01:27:00,829 She'll like that. -Good. 1014 01:27:00,913 --> 01:27:04,249 Okay, this guy and I have to handle important matters. 1015 01:27:04,333 --> 01:27:06,376 Are you coming? We can get pizza. 1016 01:27:06,460 --> 01:27:09,880 No, take some boy time. We're having some girl time. 1017 01:27:10,714 --> 01:27:12,925 Good. -Yes. Have fun. 1018 01:27:13,509 --> 01:27:16,553 Okay, we'll be back in an hour. -Fine. 1019 01:27:22,476 --> 01:27:23,644 Bye, guys. 1020 01:27:27,773 --> 01:27:28,816 We love you. 1021 01:27:39,743 --> 01:27:42,371 Pinky Tinkerbink and her mom were best friends. 1022 01:27:43,997 --> 01:27:45,582 They went to the park together. 1023 01:27:46,917 --> 01:27:47,960 They baked together. 1024 01:27:49,378 --> 01:27:50,796 They dressed up together. 1025 01:27:52,423 --> 01:27:54,758 One day Pinky's mom got sick. 1026 01:27:56,218 --> 01:27:58,011 They could no longer play together. 1027 01:28:06,145 --> 01:28:10,315 Every night Pinky wished with a star that her mother got better again. 1028 01:28:11,859 --> 01:28:16,071 But little by little the stars disappeared from the sky. 1029 01:28:16,989 --> 01:28:18,907 Her mother did not get better. 1030 01:28:20,159 --> 01:28:22,369 One evening Pinky looked out the window. 1031 01:28:22,911 --> 01:28:24,955 All the stars had disappeared. 1032 01:28:25,831 --> 01:28:27,916 She had nothing more to wish for. 1033 01:28:28,000 --> 01:28:29,334 This one? 1034 01:28:30,169 --> 01:28:32,212 Or this one? 1035 01:28:32,296 --> 01:28:34,715 Pinky's magic finger started to tingle. 1036 01:28:36,467 --> 01:28:39,970 She thought, thought and thought. 1037 01:28:41,764 --> 01:28:45,392 'I must make the stars shine again', Pinky said to mom. 1038 01:28:46,351 --> 01:28:47,394 'But I don't know how.' 1039 01:28:47,478 --> 01:28:48,854 This is the winner. 1040 01:28:48,937 --> 01:28:49,855 What do you think? 1041 01:28:50,647 --> 01:28:53,442 We'll start with this. -I'll be right back. 1042 01:29:04,745 --> 01:29:06,580 ...two and 15/16th. 1043 01:29:07,206 --> 01:29:08,040 And slide. 1044 01:29:15,089 --> 01:29:16,256 Backwards? 1045 01:29:25,599 --> 01:29:27,226 Mommy loves you, honey. 1046 01:29:29,103 --> 01:29:31,647 Nothing's more fun than getting something dirty, right? 1047 01:29:32,898 --> 01:29:34,608 Thank you. I needed some dirt. 1048 01:29:51,542 --> 01:29:52,918 FRAGILE 1049 01:30:40,215 --> 01:30:46,263 So Pinky defeats the star monster and brings all the stars back into the sky. 1050 01:30:48,348 --> 01:30:51,935 Then all the children in the world can wishing for things again. 1051 01:30:53,437 --> 01:30:54,271 Is that correct? 1052 01:30:58,192 --> 01:30:59,359 It's a happy ending. 1053 01:31:00,569 --> 01:31:02,112 Real? -Yes. 1054 01:31:07,159 --> 01:31:08,660 What does Pinky wish? 1055 01:31:11,288 --> 01:31:12,122 Pinky? 1056 01:31:14,875 --> 01:31:15,751 Yes. 1057 01:31:18,837 --> 01:31:19,671 This. 1058 01:31:22,049 --> 01:31:23,967 This is all she wanted. 1059 01:31:32,684 --> 01:31:35,604 Hi, I'm here to see Rachel Davis Nathan. 1060 01:31:35,687 --> 01:31:36,939 Dad. -She just gave birth. 1061 01:31:44,196 --> 01:31:45,239 Wait until you see her. 1062 01:31:48,992 --> 01:31:50,994 Look who I found. 1063 01:31:56,625 --> 01:31:59,878 Congratulations, grandpa. -Congratulations to you. 1064 01:32:00,379 --> 01:32:01,839 Give this to your sister. 1065 01:32:03,006 --> 01:32:04,091 Wait a minute. 1066 01:32:08,512 --> 01:32:09,555 How are you feeling? 1067 01:32:10,222 --> 01:32:11,056 It's okay. 1068 01:32:12,307 --> 01:32:13,434 Hello. 1069 01:32:14,726 --> 01:32:17,855 Hello. -She'd like to meet you. 1070 01:32:19,690 --> 01:32:21,233 And I you too. 1071 01:32:27,448 --> 01:32:29,408 I know. 1072 01:32:32,745 --> 01:32:34,246 Come on. 1073 01:32:37,458 --> 01:32:38,333 Thank you. 1074 01:32:39,585 --> 01:32:43,172 PINKY TINKERBINK SAVES THE STARS 1075 01:32:43,672 --> 01:32:49,470 FOR RACHEL, TEDDY AND ETHAN 1076 01:32:57,186 --> 01:33:02,649 Sometimes the stars are hidden behind the clouds 1077 01:33:04,818 --> 01:33:08,405 Sometimes they are overshadowed by the sun. 1078 01:33:10,491 --> 01:33:12,451 Sometimes they hide behind the moon. 1079 01:33:16,163 --> 01:33:19,083 Even if you don't see them, they are always there. 1080 01:33:22,669 --> 01:33:24,004 Just like me. 1081 01:33:26,632 --> 01:33:28,300 Even if you don't see me... 1082 01:33:31,637 --> 01:33:33,472 my love is always with you. 1083 01:38:59,006 --> 01:39:04,303 In 1995 postpartum depression became apparent rarely discussed or diagnosed. 1084 01:39:04,386 --> 01:39:08,056 One in five new mothers suffers from postpartum depression. 1085 01:39:08,140 --> 01:39:11,226 Many are too ashamed to tell someone how they feel. 1086 01:39:11,310 --> 01:39:16,982 {\an8}If you are one of those women, you are not a bad mother. You are not alone. 1087 01:39:17,065 --> 01:39:22,529 {\an8}Postnatal depression is treatable. Ask for help and get better. 1088 01:39:22,613 --> 01:39:27,076 {\an8}Julie has missed so much. 1089 01:39:31,622 --> 01:39:36,585 FOR BRIAN, SAMMY AND ANNA 1090 01:45:01,577 --> 01:45:03,579 Subtitles Translated by: Annemarieke Schaap